
I finally found the courage last night to watch the “Deadliest Catch” episode where Captain Phil Harris dies. Yes, it’s been 3 years, yes, it’s a reality TV show and no, I never knew him, but maybe, just maybe, it was kind of an important moment in my life. An honest portrayal of a life leaving this mortal coil. A heartfelt connection to that inevitability many of us so deeply fear. A fresh reminder that life is worth experiencing, not just enduring. I wept with my whole body. I let the tears flow unchecked, and later, in restless slumber, I dreamed of the sea, and of hornets, and of grief and release. I awoke to a cold November rain glistening on the last autumn leaves, the cries of seagulls still echoing in my head. Stepping out into the crisp gray morning, I inhaled deeply and swear I could smell salt in the air.
Thank you, Phil.
Captain Phil Harris
of the Cornelia Marie
December 19, 1956 – February 9, 2010